I don’t want to move on

I don’t want to move on

Letting go

Of my fantasy;

Something I held 

And still hold dear.

But I must move on,

For everyone’s sake,

I must plod on.

Hard it is indeed

To leave it behind.

But I must,

Before I am wrecked,

Sunk like a ship

Cannon-ball stricken.

Sometimes I wish

To be drowned

In side my own head,

In my memories

And my fantasies.

But reality 

Has a vicious grip.

So here I am

Half submerged

And choking

On my own emotions.

But still I don’t want

To move ahead.

Let me remain,

Here in my mind.

I do not wish

To let it go.