Reasons for paranoia

Reasons for paranoia

So many mistakes,

So many missteps;

So many friends left

Angry, sad, annoyed,

Or simply, plain mad.

All, all because I was wrong,

Because I was stupid,

All because I did ‘what I shouldn’t have done;

All of it is only my fault.

Now I’ve grown wary.

I’ve caused enough distress,

So I’ve become cautious.

I tread now with a light foot,

Ever ready to retrace my steps,

Ever ready to turn back and flee,

Or fall on my knees and plead.

So rib me not for my paranoia;

It is the only shield

Which defends you

From my colossal mistakes.